Hmmmmm Damn! What do I do ?

             

Things that want to change but can’t.

Well, always the day which is memorable in your life, you won’t forget. Though nightmare gives more pain, you forget everything once you wake up. What about the things that happened in real life. Having said” Life and movie isn’t same”. But if you ever realize that some movies made inspiring from real life story…

Right now I can’t say anything about my life. The way life shows me I took that turn. No matter it’s right or wrong. Completely numb. I wish I could Figure out that mysterious girl who’s making my sleepless night. I really Wish I do.

Where I belong?

In the silence that’s totally odd,

In the laughter that’s adequate already,

In the daunting pain of my heart,

In the tenderness in your heart,

Where I belong?

To the world that hauls you less than no time,

To the bitter screams,

Int he everlasting beam,

Where I belong, not a one takes a hint, through there gleam,

Where I belong?

In my reveries of triumph,

In the upshots of failure,

In the unspoken words,

To the battling fields,

Where I belong?

In your smugness,

In my frailties,

Down in the dumps,

Where I belong?

In the stars that shine,

In the confined mind,

....to nowhere, I belong!

Is That Love?????

I don’t know what to write about that mysterious girl. I don’t even know when did I fell in the love. I might now have good personality but yeah I certainly believe that love doesn’t have need anything. (Maybe just heard somewhere never tried :P). Yaar as usual I am kind of getting fear to talk with her to face to face.

Hey mysterious girl, why did you spoiling my dreams,

While the scene is quite beautiful as we walking on the empty road and eating ice-cream,

I wish I could tell you directly what I fell, then,

The inside sounds shattered into my heart saying what if she rejects.

Whenever we met, you always look different,

Still I wonder, is that your cloth, is that hairstyle or is it you?

I wish I could tell you what I feel,

I wish you could understand the feelings that

I have always been kept silent on the meeting,

I really wish, I do.


P.S. I don't know is that love or just attraction but I am fucking loving it :P still playing hide and seek 

Random! Hypothetical

Oh Dear! No one can express how much I love you

Its not the way you look, nor the touch or whisper

It’s not the way you see nor hear or feel

But then I’m unable to express, no matter how many words I take

Why my heart beat stops, when I see you?

Oh was that so easy to fall in love that I can’t help myself

That I never realized, life is so incomplete without you in it.

Wish I could tell you, before it’s late

I still don’t understand why it’s so complicated

To let you know, that it will always be just you.

when I called it was nothing

is that called a love or it was just an attraction?

the foolish move did everything wrong.

may be i have to believe on the destiny.

Everything is messed up. life and love.

P.S. I don't know what I have written. It just the random poem. "Iska kisi vastavikta se koi sambndh nahi". Here I refers to the hypothetical person. :P  

Moon Or You? ! No comparison!

Your eyes are certainly very talkative.

Speaking a lot with the silent message.

One says moon is nice but,

Your beauty is equal to the twice of it

I doubt, Moon might wondering after watching your face

And that is the reason to conceal on new moon night.

Doesn’t matter you like me or not,

Doesn’t matter you ever stare me or not,

But, I found there is something new every day,

I am still confused, Is it talking style, your clothes or you ?

Just take a look in the mirror, you will find another moon

That isn’t established or searchable in the whole galaxy

As your beauty has no comparison with the moon or starts. 

The Thing…..Pain…..!

Do you know what gives the pain most? For one it maybe an accident. For one its love. For one it might a headache. But for those, “an empty stomach”.

It was a Saturday. Unfortunately, my personal ATM card was blocked. I had only 30 bucks in my pocket. I never depend on my salary but it was away from two days. I had gone to my friend’s house by bus and when I reached to my destination, there was something that screaming, Yeah! My stomach. So, I went to the Vadapaw Tapri. Give a though to ate then will smoke. 30 bucks were enough for it. However, I ordered one. Realized one child was dragging my pant, and pointing towards the Vadapaw. So, I ordered two, and then there were three children more dragging my pant of other leg. So, ordered four. Had only 30 bucks. I wasn’t eaten.  Gave to those poor children. Sometimes, you don’t wish to eat although you are too hungry. It was my situation.

Finally, I missed my ciggi and bought two happydent with remaining two Rs. We give a damn that my salary wasn’t enough, I don’t have girlfriend, my personality is not good or I don’t have enough hair, I don’t have money to buy everything and Bla Bla Bla. Have you ever think about them? They only have a sense about their stomach. A poor child. They only live for it and die because of it.

On other hand, I had nothing in my pocket. So, I apprehended that there were no different between them and me except my clothings. 

Pain is really a vital thing that give us the hope that you have something to cry.

P.S. It was really an outstanding experience and sometimes this happens not by choice but it was by co-incident. And we forget the message given by the narrator in it. Maybe I could forget something but I have written what I felt.

I feel like a give up!

Nowadays, I feel like a give up but my mind can't stop thinking about you.. Is there any medicine to prevent it?


Here I am, Unable to remove you from my mind,
Unable to express my feelings, Unable to say a thing,
Unable to move and come in the present,
Enthralling  all the words, chat and Messages,




Najane ye dil samjhata kyoun nahi,
Najane kyoun mai aajkal bekarar sa rehata hun,
Koi to hai is dil me jiskeliye ye dil tadapta hai,
Kya isi ko pyyar kehate hai,
Kash mai usese baat kar pata,
keh pata jo hai dil me par, 
Ye dil darta hai, Dard bhi deta hai,
Jo bhi khuda se manga dilse,
khuda ne usi dil ko tadpaya hai,
Shayad isliye ye dil darta hai tumese baat karne me,
Kiyounki jo dilese manga wo nahi mila isliye najane ye dil bohot darta hai...
Kaise samjhau ise kaise uljhau  ise?

I.......... And You ....... We......

Mesmerizing, the way you look at me,

As it touches deep down my soul

Bringing me back to the wonderland, to be in my dream,

Was it planned this way?

That I was meant for you,

I wonder how you steal my destiny

From the hands of fate, Coz I know

You came my way out of nowhere to be my side forever.

I love you from bottom of my heart,

Your voice is really makes me numb,

I think I am in love or I am dumb,

I wish you could understand the feelings,

That pain, that dream, that memory

And that………………

more than anyone can show or do.

I really, I wish, I do, I care, I love.

and I will.