Wednesday, 23 March 2011

Totally fucked.... :(


I am fucking depressed. I don’t care if  this post goes into the depression. I don’t know what to do. Should I be happy or sad? My bro has wedding in May. And now I have to leave my home. My house’s space is too less and I know my bro and bhabhi will need privacy. My mom-dad won’t give me a hint but I realize that “ mujhe ab kahi rent pe rahena prega”. Nowadays, I am not earning much trough online income and I can’t depend on my job salary. I didn’t take a single rupee from my parents since 6 years. I have lots of problem in my life these days.   I don’t like to be frustrated. I just try to be happy. I believe that there is no worth to be angry or sad. Maybe I am just trying to show the happiness on my face although I am not.  

I don’t want to leave my family and live lonely. But, there isn’t option. Perhaps, it just for 1 or 2 year. I love my family. Even if this is a big problem, I will not bend.  Someone has told Its life so hota hai re don’t be depressed…. Earlier, I smoked only 2 ciggi in a day but now I used to smoke thrice or more.   

I know it's called life that’s why I am living careless and carefree. I have seen some people who get frustrated and remove the angriness on others. Example is my HR and some people.   I am happy for my brother.. However, feeling sad that I have to leave a home. I can’t say anything. It’s life. Doesn’t wait for anyone. Leave it or live it. :D now I am relaxed.  Let it be. Guys enjoy each moment. :D \:D/ Jhingalala hoo Jhingalala ho HOO HOO HOO !!!  

P.S. I hardly proofread my blogs as

"Kabhi kabhi dili ki baat juban pe lana muskil ho jata hai,
Likhana to aasan hai padhana muskil ho jata..." :((

P.P.S: Chetan look a room on rent for me. sigh……

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